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Time:11:31 pm
Do what you want but I know who you are
Say what you want but I know what you're thinking
Go where you want but I won't be too far
Go where want and I know where you'll end up

If you fall in love
Fall in love and hold nothing back
I'll fall in love
Fall in love and hold nothing back from you, oh
You oh
You oh
You

Do what you want but I know who you are
Say what you want but I know what you're thinking
If you fall in love
Fall in love and hold nothing back
I'll fall in love
Fall in love and hold nothing back from you, oh
You oh
You oh
YOU.
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Time:10:44 pm
yes i'm still around. just hanging out on myspace way too much.

i found this writing and it still applies today:

Though my life is coming to a crucial turning point, I fear that I am not ready. I am anxious to see what comes in the future, but I am scared that I will not be able to conquer all that I am faced with. I know that God will be right there, aiding me throughout it all, and sometimes even carrying me when I have no strength left. My worst fear is not making a significant impact on others’ lives. I want to be able to look down from heaven on the day of my funeral, and see people completely affected by the encounters they had with me. The only way I can do that is through God. I know the person God wants me to be, and I know I am not there yet. I believe that in order to fully become the real “you”, you need to be willing to sacrifice those things that you know are not necessarily helping your character. I am frank enough to state that I am not willing to give up those things yet. I willingly admit that I am not ready. I am just hoping that God takes that as a humble self-declaration. I do not claim to be the perfect Christian. I know that I have many faults and many sins that I participate in. But my heart is true. I am real. I know that God has made my heart with the spirit of His, and someday that heart will wholly shine through. I do not judge those who are not walking with God, I do not deject those who are living the secular life of the world, because I know that everyone struggles with different forms of sin, and as the word says “a sin is a sin”, no matter its magnitude. I just pray that those who do not know God can be stronger than I am when it comes to weaknesses. I know that I am strong at heart, but my flesh is weak.
I just want to spread the love of God. God is love. And the greatest of all things is love. A love that is never failing, never judgmental, never favoring. A love that is always there, regardless of how many mistakes are made. Love keeps no records of wrongs, and is patient with our human-ness. We can be away from God for years, and He’ll still be right behind us, waiting patiently for our cry for help, and eager to sweep us off our feet. That, to me, is unfathomable. That, to me, is true love.
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Time:10:08 pm
i had the best evening last night!!!! thank the lord for showing me some things are worth waiting for.

and tomorrow is going to be an even better day! I CAN'T WAIT!!! we're going to sweep biola, and then i'm going to have a wonderful evening with a very fun and caring person!


p.s. the acceptance boys are coming to town in a week or so... SOOO excited! i'm so proud of them and excited to see everyone be blown away by their cd! they're gonna be HUGE!

<3
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Time:01:08 am
had a fun weekend at home. got to see all the people i love and couple people i dont, but all in all a good weekend. i already miss home. jordan and i had a great conversation friday night- filled with yelling and then ALOT of tears but it ended magnificiantly (sp?) and i love him so much more now. he's such a blessing, even if he is so fricking opinionated. i love all my friends, they are amazing.

i'm convinced i have the best mother in the world. she's my best friend and although she gets on my nerves sometimes... i know she has ALWAYS and WILL ALWAYS love me-- mistakes and all.

easter sunday was good.. church was good, i cried... but i always do.

other than that. back to orange county, back to school, back to softball... two of those things i don't mind at all. (HINT: school's not one of them) whatever. that's life.



1 year and i'm doing just fine.
___________________________________________

You tried so hard to make me stumble...

But I'm so much stronger than that.
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Time:12:13 am
I LOVE the band PLUMB.

One of my friends randomly brought out their cd tonite, and I haven't listened to them since high school... so we put it on my ipod. I used to listen to this cd everyday and my best bud and i would belt it out at the top of our lungs!!! ahhh... those were the days.
p.s. they have amazing lyrics, and you know how i feel about that.


I watched you sit alone
I watched you cry your eyes out
Now tell me what you've done

is it so bad that
I would shut you out
And leave you here alone

Yes, I saw what you did
I was right there with you
I won't let you sink
No, I forgive you

Phobic
Don't be
Grace needs a little more freedom
Phobic
Don't be
Love needs room to breathe

I have watched you grow
And I've stood in your shadow
I've never walked away

I hung the stars and
I hold your heart
So, don't ever be afraid

Yes, I know when you breathe
And I feel when you need
I won't let you sink
No, I forgive you

You can be healed
You can be free
You can know peace
Never be afraid again

Never be afraid
Never be afraid
He's here

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in my heart i had hope
built on dreams i'll never know
answers to love left behind.



I have a HUGE game tomorrow. I can't sleep though.
Ehhhhh....

<3
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Time:01:27 am
FIVE WORDS:

kelly clarkson- "because of you"




listen to it.
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Time:10:35 am
GOING HOME TODAY!!!! YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!

i missed home so much. can't wait.

<3
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Time:01:27 am
i remember when you filled my heart with joy
was i blind to the truth?
just there to fill the space
cuz now you have no interest in anything that i have to say
i've allowed you to make me feel
i feel so dumb
what kind of fool am i?
you so easily set me aside

you made a fool of me
tell me why
you say that you don't care
but we made love tell me why
you made a fool of me
you made a fool of me

i want to kiss you
does she want you with the pain that i do
i smell you in my dreams
but now when we're face to face
you won't look me in the eye
no time, no pleasure, no love
you say don't touch you
i can't touch you no more
i can't touch you anymore
anymore...

you made a fool of me
tell me why, tell me why
you say that you don't care
but we made love
tell me why



Over a year since it started back up again.... starting up again... its starting up again.... we'll be watching your back. It's permanent. NOTHING IS PERMANENT.


NOTHING.
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Time:01:19 am
God, I can't do it anymore. I can't hold on to it. Please, take it away. I am done, I am not strong enough and I need you to take it off my heart. Its weighing me down..... It's killing me.

I get to go home and see my family next week, couldn't have been better timing, I need home to refresh my spirits.


<3
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Time:07:05 pm
I just wanted to let all my friends know...

I found out last week that my brother got re-activated, and he is going to be shipped back to Iraq in January sometime. He's already been there once for 6 months, so its a little frustrating because we thought he was done serving his duty. But my family and I know that its all in God's hands, and my brother is completely happy to serve his country all over again. He even said last time when he came back from Iraq that he'd do it all over again, and well... here's his chance.
Please pray for my family (especially my mom), my brothers girlfriend (who is taking it very hard) and ALL THE FAMILIES who have to deal with having a loved one over seas fighting for their country.

You don't have to support the war, but you can support the people fighting for us.

Thanks guys/gals.

<3 Holly
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